What a fucking wild 36 hours I’ve had, to say that I am tired is the biggest understatement of this decade. I’ve worked three shifts now and I’ve slept about 6 hours total, but I’m so happy so it’s alright. This place is cool, and the girls say hi to me now when they pass me in the hallways..but it’s much slower here than I would like. I’ve had three parties so far since I’ve started, which means that for the whole 40 hours I’ve worked I’ve only actually worked maybe 3 of those. That’s rough. It’s hard not to feel like you’re wasting your time here…but it’s totally worth it for the experience.
Last night I got picked out of the first lineup of the evening, it was the cutest war veteran…he was so nervous he couldn’t say anything without stammering a bit. There’s something about seeing how nervous a guy is to be there that just makes me feel so much affection for them. To know that they’re that nervous and yet they still came in, and followed through, and are making it happen for themselves, that’s something to admire and be proud of…ya know? So anyways, we ended up agreeing on a price for a 15 minute party with oral only. I know I don’t have to tell you guys, but I rocked his world 🙂 After he left I went to the next line up and it was a couple (we get so many of them!!!) at first the couple said they just wanted to hang at the bar, but after a bunch of shots they decided they wanted to party with me. It ended up being a pretty fun time!! I went down on her, fucked her with my toys, and then she laid on top of me while her husband fucked her so we could make out. And there was lots of eye contact. It was a pretty delightful time until the end when she started telling me that I shouldn’t be doing this for a living because I deserve more and have “too much potential”. I know she thought she was coming from a nice place, but I was so offended. Like bitch, you don’t get to hire me and then judge me after I just made you and your husband cum. You can fuck right off with that bullshit. There’s something discouraging when you hang out with someone who is progressive and open minded but still struggle to see sex work as something pure and empowering. I see it on Fetlife all the time. It just reinforces why a place like this is so important, there’s a whole community of people who genuinely get it. Who understand what’s in my heart and what this business can do for you: financially, mentally, and emotionally. But, that’s a journal entry for when I’m well rested and able to form coherent thoughts eloquently.
Moving on, the thing that sucked about last night is that both of those parties were done by like 7, and then I got nothing else…so the next eleven hours was just me hanging out. Finally 6 am came around and I passed out, got about 2 hours of sleep before my wake up call for a 9 am party. It was a pre booked party from a guy that saw me on The Bunny Ranch message boards. And let me just tell you, I was not my best haha that poor soul. I looked rouuuuugh. Thankfully he wasn’t looking for anything too crazy, we did a 90 minute party and I rode him just about the entire time…so I got a good quad workout in, which is good because I’ve had no time to work out haha so there were winners all around. The only thing that kind of bummed me out is that he didn’t cum, he said he can’t cum around other girls…he has to wait until he gets home to masturbate. Which I totally understand but ughhh I’m feeling incredibly cum deprived these days. Quite devastating if you ask me.
Today was nice but I got even less action. I slept for about three hours after my morning party and then had to get ready for my shift tonight. Also, today the ranch did some live streaming which I guess they do every Saturday, so we all sit down in front of a camera and kind of interview each other. Madam Suzette picks one of the veteran girls to be the interviewer and the rest of the bunnies take turns getting interviews. It’s just a cool way for guys who are wanting to know more about the different bunnies to get to know us a little better. It was fun listening to the other girls answer questions and chat, but when it came to my turn she didn’t ask me near as many questions. I felt like I hardly got a chance to say anything of substance or showcase my personality really…I still haven’t decided how much to read into that or not. Honestly, I don’t really have the emotional energy to give it much of my attention. After that the Bunny Bar and Lounge got pretty busy which was fun, but unfortunately none of the men were interested in anything more than having some drinks and looking at the girls. I did have one little party but it was like 5 minutes, he was a sweetheart from Canada who just wanted to see my body naked. What a fucking missed opportunity, am I right?
The rest of this evening kind of drug on, butttt it was karaoke tonight and that was a blast. I even ended up singing!!! I did The Pretty Girl Rock and then King Kunta by Kendrik Lamar…I butchered both of them pretty spectacularly, but was proud that I did it anyways. I also lost 9 games of Uno, won 2, and ate way too many Cheerios. Watching my diet has proven to be incredibly difficult to do here, because there’s nothing else to do but eat. I would rather be stuffing my face with dick, but alas, goldfish has taken it’s place. Now it’s 5:15 am and I have 45 minutes left until blissful sleep. I. Cannot. Wait. My hope is that I’ll be able to sleep straight until noon and then maybe I can finally work out before my shift tomorrow night. Also, tomorrow Dennis Hof comes back…so I’ll finally get to meet him. Here’s to hoping that he likes me, and that I can bite my tongue about the fact that he’s a pimp who is running for office representing a party that thrives on oppressing and controlling women and their bodies. Unfuckingbelievable if you ask me.
That’s all I’ve got for you babies tonight. I’m not writing these near as nicely and thoughtfully as I want to be, but I just can’t find the time or energy right now. Once my sleep schedule adjusts I promise to do better. I love you all, gallons and gallons. I really hope that I get a big party tomorrow…something of substance. Cross your fingers for me!